There are times in life where I have randomly had time to go through my blog posts. I definitely realized which ones really impact me and which ones I can read through and not flinch. It has typically been that the ones that really move me are the ones that I trembled a little to post. Many times I question if its the right time or the actually what I want to say now. When I read over them occasionally its so timely sometimes for what I’m going through or what I need to hear. Its like reading your past journal entries. You remember when God told you this or prayers that God answered!
One old blog post that stood out to me was my racist post. It spoke to me in a way that I didn’t feel when I wrote it. It honestly just bugs me more and more when I see people pick on colour… no matter what colour it is or whether the person is fine with it. So I was glad I spoke that. But even more so after writing that post I was put into a weekly opportunity to test my heartfelt beliefs in two ways in regards to prejudice.
I have been working with a new centre in the town of Portage La Prairie that is called Prairie Pregnancy Support Centre. Nope I really can not relate to being pregnant or having children, but I do have a heart for women in need of help. My job is administrative but I am typically the first person that people see and interact with when they walk in the door. God has shown me that harbouring prejudgment about people is just not something that works at a support centre.
Learning that I have more prejudice in my heart then I’d like to admit. Whether thats towards a client or even the lovely christian women I work with. We all are gospel bible believing amazing women but there are always things passed around like “this church does that” or “that church does do this”. Some things are very important to do or not do, but some things are just petty preferences. Differencing them out in your heart isn’t easy sometimes but once you put it through the grid of God’s word you will probably realize what is of eternal importance. SO I am trying to be a willing learning in judging by what is of eternal importance and not in what is my personal preference. And tada I am constantly learning and growing and this blog has helped me SO much in doing that! I pray that it is impacting one of you in the way that it helps draw you closer to Jesus!