We are basically in the middle of November now and this year has gone by so fast! I’ve heard that the years only go faster as you get older; I always wished that were true growing up when birthdays never came quick enough, and years seemed to drag by in my mind, but now I’m realizing how true it is! I wish sometimes that I had a photographic memory that could remember the littlest of details from the most random of things because as time passes by I start to realize how much I am missing.
Rolling over I close my eyes not wanting to get up… just a few more minutes, please, I’m begging you! But my alarm doesn’t listen to my silent begging, even after four times of pressing snooze and a grand total of fifteen minutes to actually be presentable and at work, I finally get out of bed and rush to get out the door.
It is an eight-minute drive to work and it feels as though it is always a drag to get there. The struggle of wishing you were doing something else or something more.
I am a person that has a whole bunch of dreams and aspirations! I am a dreamer! Growing up I always wanted to be a doctor, after learning the schooling time though I figured I could settle for being a nurse. I always LOVE a good missionary biography, so when I was around seven I decided I would be a missionary nurse! Oh, that was such a romantic idea! Living in an unknown people group that you are slowly winning to Jesus as you served them medically! Yes, that is exactly what I wanted! Little did/do I realize how hard missionary life is. How many of God’s people return home due to illness, breakdown or exhaustion. Then becoming a pilot I really struggled with knowing why I loved it so much and how I could use it to God’s glory. Military always was in the back of my mind for that, and if I wasn’t engaged I really wonder if I would’ve taken advantage of the government's free training. Then I was reminded of Nate Saint. A bush pilot that was a companion to Jim Elliot. Missionary pilot! So I forged ahead in my flight training with one goal… missionary pilot.
Now time still passes. Life seems to happen whether you ask for it or not. Your bed will seem more inviting than your job, most days for me at least. But it is good to dream! Dreams, aspirations, spontaneous living are very healthy in my mind. If you don’t dream I feel as though your life is dull. You’d have nothing to look forward to! Nothing to push you to do more, to get better! Even if dreams mean starting at the bottom to get to where you want to go, it then becomes a humbling experience. I still have so many dreams, and I know that Jesus has put those in me for a reason, I just have to figure out how to channel all of them and figure out which ones will bring Him the glory due His name!