Life has been so crazy these past two weeks! Life threw a lot at Jeffrey and I, God’s hand was so evident in it all! I can’t expound on what all happened at this time, but I will share it sometime in the future!
I feel like most people I’ve talked to don’t like changes in life. I know that a lot of that is personality; my sisters are awesome examples of that. I do think there is a point though where you can decide not to fight the change. Change happens. It just does. Sometimes you choose it, sometimes you don’t. I can’t say I’ve always liked the change that has happened in my life in fact I would get anxiety, bad, whenever I got overwhelmed with everything that was happening. (I’ll do a post on anxiety sometime maybe. I feel like its a very common thing)
Change has played such a huge part in my life;
-We moved to a different country when I was 4,
-did preschool and kindergarten there,
-then we moved back home (a place that I didn’t really remember) when I was 6.5,
-I started school in Canada in grade 1,
-Grade 5 year we changed churches and started homeschooling (I felt like I had to start over in everything including making friends),
-grade 10 my mom had a miscarriage,
-that same year she was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer,
-a year later we moved to colorado for 3 months,
-almost two years after being diagnosed mom died,
-one year after she died I got a boyfriend,
-16 months later I was engaged.
I definitely feel like I am still figuring myself out and how I react to change. I don’t freak-out typically. I don’t go into a silent mental breakdown, in which I would retreat to my room and talk to no one. I try to face it head on. I think I got some of who I am from my dear grandma.
Grandma has had a life full of adventures and ups and downs (nine children will help with that). Something that is amazing about her is that she never seems surprised or shaken when it comes to surprises and change. She is one of the strongest women I know and I am so proud to call her my grandma! She was with us girls when we found out that mom died, her first concern was us even though she had just watched her first born, her daughter, suffer and die. I don’t mean for this to get all sad but honestly her life has taught me so much! How she walks and interacts with people. How she listens and gives advice. How she’s been a “mom” to me since mine isn’t here anymore. I could go on and on!! In regards to change though I can hear her saying that everything happens for a reason and God has it all under control, we just have to trust, and what happens will happen.
On that note I’ll end. I can’t change the changes that come most of the time, but God knows, and he’s always there holding me.