If you don’t follow me on Instagram then you won’t know that I took the plunge and chopped my hair again. The first time I chopped my hair was when I was eight. I had donated my hair to cancer care then and pretty much ever since. Its really nice to feel like I was making someones day a bit more happy.
Recently a lady in our church that had a type of cancer that the doctors deemed hopeless was almost entirely healed! I am overjoyed for her and her family! It is absolutely devastating to get the news that there is nothing more that the doctors can do! I know that so I praise God that her health has been restored! When we heard the news in our church that she was healed of the awful disease I first felt so extremely happy, but then there was a twinge of sadness. I wish my mom could still be here. I would be calling her and asking her questions and hanging out with her at home and baking with her… I know I would because thats what she did with her mom haha.
A few tears welled up in my eyes as people prayed prayers of thanksgiving for Gods mercy on her life. I was reminded in that moment that NOTHING that happens in this world happens unless God allows it. Which is actually so comforting to me. He is in control and since I trust Him and His will then I trust that whatever happens is best. That doesn’t mean I have no emotion to what happens, obviously I do. Definitely wouldn’t have chosen my mom suffering and dying but to her dying breath she wanted all the glory to go to God. And because of that I continue to hear stories of how my moms testimony in life and death effected people and actually I’m so proud of that! It wasn’t in vain! It didn’t end in death.
Have you ever heard the song with the bridge line “In death in life, I’m confident I’m covered by the power of your great name.” My mom was confident in her saviour and I am so glad that I have that confidence to. The church family, although they aren’t perfect, just like me, have helped me grow so much in my confidence and walk with the Lord. I have so appreciated my family in Christ for standing by my family and standing by other families going through valleys in our lives. Cancer sucks but there is hope in the midst of the pain with Jesus.