Waking up to sun beams on your face through a tent and a day of adventure ahead of you is a feeling that I love! The water lapping up against my toes and my bible on my lap as I sit lakeside is another feeling that is hard to beat! “How could one ever bore of life?!” I muse to myself as the sunlight bounces off of a ripple creating a sparkling dance upon the water that I gaze upon. I am perched quietly on a rock about two or so feet from the shore, toes in the water, face hot from the sun. Of course in typical Regan fashion I began pondering!
I was in a slightly romantic kinda mood so I decided to read in Song of Solomon that morning. *cheesy smile* Well… as I was reading the song I came across this verse “Sustain me with raisins; refresh me with apples, for I am sick with love.” SofS 2:5 Now when I read Song of Solomon I read it as a love letter.. From God to me… yes there's some awkward parts but for some examples of stuff that makes my heart melt:
-Draw me after you; let us run.- SofS 1:4a
-Behold, you are beautiful, my love; behold, you are beautiful; your eyes are doves.- SofS 1:15
-My beloved speaks and says to me: “Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away,- SofS 2:10
-You have captivated my heart, my sister, my bride; you have captivated my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace. -SofS 4:9
Sigh is that not just beautiful! Anyway I got stuck on the part where it says “for I am sick with love.”. Wow Jesus is lovesick for His bride! He wants to be with her! As I sat there on the rock I thought to myself… ‘Do I know what it is like to be love sick?’ I probably don’t know to the extent that some people do, and I can only imagine what it looks like when Jesus is sick with love… such a beautiful thought! He sees you and he loves you with all of His heart… He is overwhelmed with love for His bride! He desires that you live with Him forever! He wants you! YOU!
Two teenage girls lay awake in a tiny two person tent trying to dodge the water drops that are falling by their heads. Thunder roars and the wind howls. My friend and I try to find a dry comfortable spot on our pillows and try to fall back asleep. I burrow deeper into my sleeping bag and cover my head with the top of it. Glancing at my wristwatch I realize that it’s only 3:00 am and we have a long night ahead. Sighing I close my eyes and drift into a restless sleep. We are in the Whiteshell and know no one.
Morning came with little change in the weather… when you’re on a camping trip you hope for clear skies and warm weather but we were going to have to learn to adventure without that. After discussing what we should do we agreed that we’d go into a town east of the park and waste the day there. It was a very sketchy town. Maybe it is not always that way but this time it was rainy, cloudy, cold and dramatic. We spent some time at a McDonald's and then spent time trying to find parking… which ended up costing us money :( . Finally we sat at a library and downloaded a iTunes movie rental for that night for something to do at the campsite during the storm. (we forgot books) after getting back to our site we made a quick supper in a break in the rain and then got ready to settle in for the night.
Through that whole day I learned a few things… or maybe just became aware of a few things. There’s choices you can make in life to make a bad day good or a good day bad. In the month of July I have failed a lot. Now I could choose to let that take me down a path of depression, anxiety and restlessness or I can choose to smile through the pain and failure and pick myself up and try to do better. This may sound like a “believe in yourself, you deserve to be happy” write up, but it is not. The only way you can succeed in making relationships work or pass those challenges in the road is through Jesus Christ. Choosing to try and see the day from a joyful and Christ-like perspective is a very healthy thing to do. So I tried to choose a joyful outlook on that rainy, miserable day… and Jesus made it one that I probably won’t forget. Smile, joy is always good for your soul!
Matching tee shirts, lots of laughter, card games and fireworks. Canada Day was one for the books this year! I got to spend the day with my boyfriend’s extended family from “Lab” as they call it and from Manitoba, it is so special getting to spend time with them. We got to witness Canada Day 150 from Assiniboine Park through country music and fireworks. It was a really great experience!
When we got to the park for the fireworks there were a lot of people. We managed to find a spot to put our chairs and stuff. Turns out we picked a spot behind a young family so we had a lot of jumping up and down and screams when the fireworks started. It was really nice seeing the joy that fireworks can bring to the childlike heart. At first I wasn’t to happy about how they would block my view of the fireworks but after a bit I learned to appreciate their joy. On top of that I wasn’t to impressed with the the fireworks but hearing people enjoying them made me want to enjoy them. By the end of the display I was enjoying them. Of course it's to be expected that at a celebration for Canada's 150th birthday that there will be a lot of people… well correct, there were a lot of people! So many in fact that it took us 30 minutes to walk out of the park!
While standing in the middle of a claustrophobic amount of people, where if you stand on your tiptoes and look over their heads and can't see an end in any direction you may start to feel slightly powerless. I did. I'd look and see basically no end to people and my mind automatically went to the terrorist attacks. How would I get out. I was slightly ashamed of myself as I gripped my boyfriends hand tighter. The last thing I wanted was for us to get separated. I still don't know what I would've done if something had happened but my fear left instantly when a man spontaneously started singing “Oh Canada”. As soon as the crowd heard it more and more people joined in creating a beautiful course of 100s maybe 1,000’s of people singing “...from far and wide oh Canada we stand on guard for thee. God keep our land, glorious and free…” those words hold so much meaning and after that moment I felt like we were all on the same page. We came to celebrate this free country we live in and we were all grateful for the peace that it holds. Yes Canadians are known for saying sorry and mostly without actually being sorry but I feel like we have a bond over knowing we are Canadian and we live in a peaceful country. Manitoba is called friendly Manitoba and I have it from some immigrants that we are actually friendly! And I think Canada as a whole is a very friendly nation. (I'm sorry if you've had bad experiences)
But like I said before I was scared. In Canada wild and bad people still exist and take lives unnecessarily. I live in the province with the murder capital of Canada in it. That's a little unnerving and I have felt unsafe at times in the city. Christ has me though. I'm slowly but surely learning to give him that fear. Living a life constantly afraid is no life to live, so why live it?! It drains you! No one is perfect and it is a daily surrender for me to give my dreams, fears and life to God. It's rewarded though!He promises to never leave His sons and His daughters! You are not one in a million, are stand alone as His Child and He sees you as one person. He will protect, if you are in Him you are covered by His proverbial wing.
“But let all those rejoice who put their trust in You; Let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them; Let those also who love Your name Be joyful in You. For You, O LORD, will bless the righteous; With favor You will surround him as with a shield. (Psalms 5:11 NKJV)