I have been blown away/humbled/honestly terrified at the amount of times my blog was mentioned in my presence this week! Some people just bringing it up randomly, some encouraging me, some finding out about it for the first time. It’s so strange that it literally only now really hit me that people read this! You guys read Regan’s random ramblings and thoughts! I am shocked and it has definitely made me really think about what I’m writing. Not that I didn’t before but now I have some faces to the the people in front of the screens that read me stuff… which is actually weird.
At the very beginning I just wanted a place to write. I needed an area to express my thoughts. Now it's become a challenge to myself and way that I can speak into people's lives!
Sunday evening I attended a young adults meeting that gets together weekly. The topic was about being mission minded. How do we know that we are making disciples and what even does a disciple look like? The main definition that collectively was agreed upon was,
A disciple is someone you train and are there to encourage and be an example for how to live in a Christ-like manner that will, eventually, make new disciples for Jesus Christ themselves.
I can’t see you physically as you read this and maybe not even as you live your life but I pray that this blog is inspiring you to live for Jesus!
My mom celebrated her 49th birthday in heaven on February 23rd. Typically its on anniversaries like that when people tell me ways that mom impacted their life. She didn’t have a blog. She refused to get facebook, even though everyone else had it. She served and made disciples through how she lived her life. In the places she chose to serve. One lady told me that she only went to girls club to hear my mom read the bible story! My heart wept reading that! The simple act of reading a bible story that kept a young girl coming back for more! Seriously how encouraging is that! The little thing that you may do, maybe even begrudgingly do, could be impacting a person's life even though you may never know. Making disciples, in my opinion, doesn’t necessarily mean constant interaction with people or a person, it just may mean faithfulness in a calling.
I pray I am faithful. I am not perfect no one is. I fail so much! I am definitely not the best example that people could look to for a role model. My mom would have said the same! I saw her live though and I saw her fail, but she is now one of my biggest hero’s. I am so proud of the family I come from! That my moms name is known as one of integrity and service. That my Grandma taught me that its not about the show you can put forward; its about your heart, the people you love, and the people you serve.
Fewf this was a deep post but I will continue to write as long as God allows/wills, whether it be here or just in a private journal. I hope that I may be a blessing in someone’s life because I know that so many people have and continue to be blessings in mine. Go and be a servant to all.
I got two valentines from two sweet, little girls on different days, in different settings and at different times. They both gave me the same valentine… which said “Courage is royal!”... now what that has to do with Valentine’s Day I really don’t know but obviously I saw a that they were the same and now needed to figure out the reason for the apparent coincidence, because that’s just me! My ponderings since then have come up with very little fruit though except for what I shall write in the rest of this blog of course! And now you shall be brought deep into the thoughts of Regan (minus all the rabbit trails I hope)
I could write a whole blog post on bravery, because bravery and courage are one and the same right?! Or are they? Yay for the people in my life who have taught me to think deeper then what the eye may see!
The definition of courage: the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.
Now bravery: possessing or exhibiting courage or courageous endurance.
making a fine appearance.
So bravery is a form of courage; bravery comes from courage. In my mind when I think of courage and bravery I think of the story books from growing up and the courageous knight and that bravely fought the dragon and saved the castle. So courage is putting aside your own life and feelings to help someone or do something. Having little to no thought for yourself and keeping a level of sanity in the face of stress.
As a pilot there’s a section of learning that you have to do called “Human Factors”. There’s so many instances where your body will feel one thing and your head will say one thing but you have to go beyond that and know what is actually happening!
For example: sensory illusions. Just something as simple as the ear can make you feel like you are a completely different orientation then you really are, because the fluid in the ear takes about 15-20 seconds to catch up with the the speed of the motion of the ear canal.
So pilots have to learn to know how their own bodies work to be able to compensate. Sanity in stressful situations. Is that courage? Well not really, but my point is that it takes practice to overcome your desires to serve others. You have to know how to stifle your own inner wants. That will help you tremendously in the face of trial to keep a level head.
Which comes back to the Lord’s prayer, “Your will be done”, it is hard to surrender yourself. It takes total love and trust on your part to give yourself fully to Christ. I think that is a true act of courage when someone surrenders all to Christ, but also I feel like that is a act of love and humility too. Courage that is followed by true humility is the greatest example of courage. All the glory to God because I am nothing without Him. Having no thought for yourself with the knowledge that you serve a higher purpose then what the human eye can see.
I feel like there's a lot I could say from what has happened this past week. One thing that sticks out most is the fact that I got sick but no one really wants to hear about that. I attended a short lecture on the pro-choice pro-life issue. I volunteered at a Mission Aviation Fellowship booth at a local conference. Here I sit at my workplace listening to my coworkers talk about pointless stuff.. okay hockey which for some is not pointless, I apologize. Now I look at my week ahead and realize my calendar has nothing on it! Pretty excited about that honestly, sometimes it's really nice just to have nothing ahead.
I wrote a little thing about taking breaks yesterday on a Instagram post. I said how much I am really looking forward to my promised two week break coming up in June. I believe I will try to just take that time to take a break from life as I know it and social media. I’m actually excited! I’m dreaming about it! It can’t seem to come soon enough! Why am I so excited?
I think it's the prospect of leaving the drama. What will I really miss in the two weeks of me not being on social media? So and so had their baby?! Trump made another threat? Some famous guy making headlines about sexual misconduct? What am I really missing? In my books not much. So then why is it so hard to get away, so scary to fall behind in posts? I think it is the fear of being out of the loop. Or maybe not having a thing to go to when you are bored waiting in the doctor’s office. I think it’s just a thing of our system now. We sit down on a couch and we pull out our phones. We get in our car we pull out our phones to tell us where to go or to entertain us while we get there.
My boss always tends to forget his phone, which makes him hard to get ahold of when he is out in the middle of nowhere, but honestly I don’t see why everyone gets so incredibly upset! I see it as he’s not addicted and dependent on his phone! He doesn’t need it to drive! When I made that statement outloud the other guys just nervously laughed and mumbled “yeah, I guess.” then quickly opened snapchat to see what had happened in the 30 seconds he hadn’t been on it. Like honestly I think it's actually a good thing when people forget their phones! It says something! Now in Manitoba right now it’s really cold so it is actually a safety thing to bring a phone with you when you leave your house, but my point remains. I am not at that point and as much as I am looking forward to my hiatus from my phone, I know it will probably be hard. Though from past experience in doing it I know its worth it!