I came across this song recently and was inspired to a write while I listened to it. Grief is something I connect with but also enjoy trying to explain. Grief rips into your very soul, it has almost the same effect as love. I’m no poet, I don’t know any of the rules of writing such beauty. What comes to me is what I write. SO I dive into the memories of grief and take you along on the journey.
The wave as many describe it
The over powering wave
Sometimes you see it
Sometimes you are caught off guard
Crashing around you
Sweeping you unwillingly along
You never asked for the ride
It came and it took over
That wave is grief.
You didn’t ask for it
Sometimes you push against it with futile attempts
To stop the emotions that it drags with it
It can seem like a burden.
It can feel like relief.
Everyone tumbles around in the wave differently
Trying to find a footing
It rips your heart to pieces
Grabbing at normal
Grasping for light
In your blinded turbulent state you fail to see
All along in pain
You were held
It all took place in the palms of two strong hands
He never left
He cried with you
He cried first
You didn’t leave His sight
His heart broke with yours
You didn’t leave His sight
He held you close all along
In the midst of turmoil
You reach for rescue
He carries you on
You trust Him
In your Fathers capable arms
I’m going to do it! I’m going to go there! Babies. Now you will be reading to the end to see if Jeffrey and Regan are having a baby.
A little while ago if you follow me on instagram then you might have seen a story I did about the ‘next question’, “When are you planning on having kids?!”. I can’t even walk through a baby section in our local Walmart without someone I know probably seeing me and thinking I’m baby prepping. Ok so I am raising the plight of the newly wed woman!
Baby subject #uno: When someone asks you when you are planning on having kids sigh, you smile and say within such and such time. I had neeever thought about that being an inappropriate question till my one aunt apologized for asking it. Then the little light bulb went off in my head, not everyone can have kids! I have a few women in my life that desperately wanted kids and never had any biological children. It hurts! It is how a woman is created to want to nurture and raise their own little baby. So in that light it can be a very wrong question to be asking or subject to be joking about. I understand that it is the flow-of-life-topics type of question, but I would strongly advise avoiding asking it because of the aforementioned reason in particular.
Baby subject #two: I, along with many young married women, are teased about being pregnant! I actually can’t believe it. “Why is Regan sitting down?” “Oh she’s pregnant” seriously?! I couldn’t believe that was a thought that managed to pass out of that persons mouth.
For century’s, and throughout many cultures, to have a baby is a sign of belonging. In todays age a lot of people choose to wait. Now this topic has a ton of gray area but for the most part I mean 2 ish years to get your marriage on track and suitable living situations in tacked is something I don’t knock. SO when young married women are constantly asked about babies, when they are really trying to focus on what God has for them in life at the moment, it can get a little distracting and aggravating.
Baby subject #3: Pinterest. Oh lovely Pinterest. I really don’t spend time on Pinterest, I often forget I have twitter and Pinterest actually. Sooo I have a family board on Pinterest... aaaaahhhh all those times I get butterflies seeing a cute picture of a mom and baby. I want it so badly to happen in my life one day. I definitely get baby fever on a monthly basis if not bimonthly.:P Guys I dream about raising a family! I love the way I was raised on a farm with so much freedom and life lessons to be learned! I think my mom did a pretty great job of raising me and teaching/showing me what it looks like to be a mom and wife. My grandma and mom are my homemaker goals! They love the Lord. They wake up and have breakfast and are doing devotions when the kids come up. They keep a orderly house but are openly hospitable when called upon whether the floor is clean or not. Like just goals for my life right there. So I would love to carry on their example! But sometimes I have to remind myself that beyond the beautiful Pinterest picture is a child that has to actually be raised. It’s a job! So I really want to remember that there is more to a picture then the put togetherness it portrays.
Jeffrey and I are not pregnant. We are waiting for a little bit to get our marriage on a firm foundation to welcome children into. We would absolutely love to adopt one day Lord willing from somewhere oversees. We actually do swoon when walking through a mall and seeing a beautiful little black girl skipping beside her mommy. Jeffrey teases me often saying he should’ve married someone with more colour so he could have adorable kids like that. We love each other and the time we get to spend together in this season. It legitimately is a real choice for me right now to choose to focus on the here and now and not the future of babies. It doesn’t help when I’m asked about kids all the time but I have to remind myself of how short this time of being a couple will probably be. Lord willing we will have kids in 5 years but for now I am learning to be content in serving the Lord as wife and homemaker and serving alongside my husband in prayer/worship ministry. I am so blessed and real look forward to a beautiful journey ahead!
“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.”
Philippians 4:11 ESV
I really don’t enjoy having to think of gift ideas... especially with that one person that has everything and yet gifts is their love language?! You have that too?! Well since I recently went through the whole bridal shower/wedding gifts thing on the receiving end I thought I would put together a list of my favourite gifts plus gifts that I really needed more of. On top of that though I’ll give you links to get those gifts through amazon! (Because who doesn’t love shopping from home!)
1: Tea towels and dish clothes! I got just enough of these... you can never really have to many! So these were much appreciated! During my bridal shower someone gave me a gift and the “wrapping paper” was tea towels! I thought that was ingenious! Heres the link to get them!
2: Knives. Guys I survived 6 months of cooking for my house and hosting at my house with three dinky little paring knives. I’m the type of person who will wait out till birthday or Christmas and put it as a *NEED* on my Christmas list. It worked and we got an amazing knife set for Christmas BUT even if it’s one nice knife it is appreciated! So here is a nice knife that any bride should appreciate!
4: Frying pan. This actually was our only cooking pan that we had when we got back from our honeymoon and it had gotten much use! If you have a frying pan with even a little bit of a side to it it can be used as a sauce pan for small quantities! So very useful!
5: Storage containers. Another thing we didn’t get but every household needs! A set of containers with lids is so helpful for anything leftovers and packed lunches! A must in the home.
6: Candles. This is a bit more frivolous but most people I know love a good candle to relax the atmosphere a bit. Pick one with maybe a slight to none scent. Although I didn’t care to much about household decorations from people I did love the candles I got!
7: Wooden cutting boards. I’m a sucker for wooden cutting boards! My brother in law gave me a personalized engraved one this Christmas and my sister gave me a set last Christmas! I have used every single one of the 6 cutting boards I own so they must be useful! Personally I really just love them for the ascetic.
And last but not least...
8: Water kettle. I love my water kettle! We had picked on for our gift registry and someone got it for us! It’s probably the coolest thing we have in our kitchen! This link is the actually kettle we own and it has been used lots! Plus you will get lots of comments on it when you are making your company some tea or pour over coffee!
I hope you find this useful! Enjoy your easy online shopping spree! I know brides will appreciate anything you get them!
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I was inspired by a post I saw on Instagram written by a very well known lady in a very sad situation that I would never in a million years want to go through. It read “beauty comes after the storm.” Obviously that caught my attention considering that my blog name is Beauty in the Storm! I totally am not knocking where she’s at in her grieving journey since we all grieve and experience life differently, but that made me wonder if the statement that my blog was making was true. I commented on her post about it. Beauty isn’t just on the other side of the storm... although we may only see the beauty in the storm afterwards.
Ok so first, “a storm?” You may ask. A storm is just a poetic type word that I am using instead of saying ‘Beauty in the Tribulation’, ‘Beauty in the Havoc’ or ‘Beauty in the Grind of Everyday Life’. I thought it was a word that stayed relevant to life even if you aren’t in a storm. Life can be busy without it being messy.
Now beauty... well that was brought to me because I wanted to see beauty in a painful story. I wanted to be able to pull apart the little details and see how God blessed me in the hard parts. I found a three entry journal that my mom started and promptly forgot about once and she had written in there about how seeing a certain bird one time had turned her day around and how God had blessed her with that bird sighting. Her choice to see beauty and blessing in the simplest things really helped her see joy in the midst of suffering.
It’s hard, I get it, our human tendency is really to focus on the bad, the wrong, the injustice. I am currently working in a job where the injustice of this world is constantly thrown at my face. I actually purposely keep my eyes open for “bird sightings”. (Sometimes it literally is a bird!) When I went through my season of time at home this summer I would get lonely at times... all of a sudden I noticed one day that my moms favourite bird was hopping around on the grass. I took note and thanked God for His little blessing upon my day. But then a flock of these birds actually came and made our yard home for weeks on end! God does things like that! I would venture to say that there is always some blessing to see in each circumstance in life, although some may be harder to find then others.
Quite honestly I really don’t like summer thunderstorms. I would actually get bad anxiety during them in my early teen years, I slowly have grown out of it since taking meteorology in flight school... understanding storms makes you appreciate them a bit more. Since learning how they move and work I have started seeing the beauty in them! (Yay for over using the words beauty and storm in this blog post!). The different colours of clouds. The sheets of rain. And if you get a storm intense enough then you get to see ———-! God places His fingers all over every part of His creation not just then nice easy-to-swallow parts. We go through valleys and come out wiser for it. You can’t not learn something in a hard spot in life. I love how God created us with hindsight and not foresight, that way we can see how He has been there for us in the hard parts of life and not be scared of things to come, because all we have is the knowledge of the experience of His faithfulness. So its important to see beauty in the storm but also very important to see beauty after the storm.